Do We Have More than One Life to Live

[Jugsmalone]

I wonder ??? Is this the end is it all over for me now???

My Life starts at 6am daily
Wake up shower make coffee
Log on to internet and AO for 2hrs
go off to work
Home from work which I am so tired of now and wish I could retire and relaxe.
Home from work Make a drink light a cig and log into GSP forums..Log into AO
3 to 4 hours of life in another demention and than to bed.
Wake up and repeat the process..

Alone and routine life now with an occsional glitch in theprogram with a visit here or thier from children and freinds.

An occassional day of shoping and errends ...

I wonder when does the program change when do those golden years happen When will i begin a New Life or is this it ...and What is Happieness Realy..

Why am I hear what purpose do i serve except to feel the pain and lonelieness of life...



Just haveing a Bad day I guess.. or a normal one right now I cant tell..

[Mukizu]

you can always reroll: start a new education for a different job or just get a new job, join your local martial arts school to add some extra points to your MA skill.
Find something to break your daily routine
Hope you'll cheer up soon

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[Jugsmalone]

LOL well that in itself cheered me up a bit thats why i play AO it is my Reroll in life when you rech a certain age and have so many other problems a gym or starting a new Job just is no longer an option not in reality but in the world of AO anything is possible....thhank god and I do live my life here as if I were reborn again.. Smiles ...getting old is just a Bitch...you dont realize how much you passed up till its not attainable any longer... So my advice to all of you out thier is this those bills will always be thier and your youth will not Do those things now that are attainable because one day they will be out of reach... You alone can make your wishes come true...

[Vallikat]

Jugs *big tight hugs*

I know you have been feeling very depressed lately about a lot of things that have been going on in your life. I think you should consider talking to your doctor about how blue you've been and see if he/she can't either prescribe something or put you in contact with a counsellor.

In the meanwhile, Mukizu is on to something about a change in routine. There are plenty of community centers that offer low cost or even free activities. You could learn something new or improve a skill you already have. Go to your local craft store and see if they don't offer lessons. Last summer when I was going out of my mind I taught myself how to crochet. I ended up making a lap blanket for my grandmother that she uses everyday. There's not a time that I see her that she doesn't tell me how much she appreciates it. It warms my heart each and every time.

Give it a shot Jugs. You know we all love you here and not a one of us would fault you if you took some time off (whether that means taking a break or just a couple nights a week) to discover something else that gives you joy. You may even make some new friends along the way.

*showers you in huggles and muffins*

Love you, sweetie Jugs!!!

[Innari]

To be honest, Jugs, if you are finding yourself depressed...get away from the computer more. I know you have friends here and they do all love you But get away from the computer. Instead of getting right on AO when you get home, go out for a good walk. Visit with neighbors, invest yourself in the world around you that isn't related to the computer.

If I feel myself getting depressed, I take a break from the computer. Sometimes it only takes a couple days, other times it takes a couple weeks of me doing other things. But I do return, and feeling like a brand new person usually.

*hugs*

So, go enjoy the outside world.

[Jugsmalone]

Aww You guys are just great and no need to worry really I am fine Just reiveing my life is all thinking about the past and wishing for changes i can no longer make....As far as hobbies I have tons of them I crochet I Paint ..I make beautiful floral arangements. ...I do ceramics ...Sew...Make costumes and Mask...I go to my weight watchers meetings can no longer do the Gym Doctors orders...I take my Meds and obey my Diet ... I do all those healthy things but I only find **Happiness** when I log into AO to me it is the world of exploration a place to do the things I can not and a place thats makes the pain go away...I just feel that thier is a reason I dont know about that keeps me here in this life and i wonder at times why I am still here when so many others are Dieing and with out the chance to expierence life ...I guess that is what sadens me the most the Katrina victems that dont have the chance to feel lost or troubled thier lives cut short when they could still contribute to the lives of others ...This is what makes me wonder and thnk and worry I worry for others that dont have the chance and I feel as if my life is not important and it is thiers that should be lived...I guess its just the ramblings of a loon but I am a bit of a nut case at times No worries Theese feeling will pass and Ill be my crazy old self again... Hugs to Dani and Valli and all my freinds in AO for thier concern and kindness... and now my day begins once more off to work Latter all...

[Mynka]

Heya, Jugsy

I often find myself wondering the same things. Matter of fact your ponderings sounds a hell of a lot like mine. Your daily routine is also extremely simuliar except instead of getting up for work I get up to take my twins to school. I just have to keep reminding myself that my life is not that different from most others or I'd go crazy in my own head. I'm also bi-polar and I am on meds but sometimes the meds are just not enough. I say embrace your online life. Lets face it, were not getting any younger here. Your the same age as my mother and I couldn't imagine her playing a game like Anarchy or any game for that matter. She gets up, goes to work, comes home and that's it. She doesn't have anything else to do. She doesn't even have a computer. She sits in front of the t.v. smokes one and goes to sleep. At least we have Anarchy and all the great people we've met and will meet in the future. If your anything like me your probably already pretty much over it but, I'd thought I'd add my two cents. hehe. *huggles*