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well it seems that God if there is such a being can test our faith in a very bitter and crule way. On May 21, my brother died No insurance and no money after gathering enough to have him put to rest and fineally to send his soul to a I hope better place , today June 1 I came home to dress for my brothers service to find My mom who you all know has been very ill Dead in the recliner...I wonder if Im being punished for something I wonder what could I have done to make life for them easier I dont have any answeres I am sad I am bittter and I ask myself if there is a God Why does he hate me so ??? I must deal with my grief and get my life back on track after I close the book on thiers.. Hopefully sooner than later and when it is all done I will be back to the one happy place I have left on this earth Ill be back to AO and GSP....please pray for my sanity weather it be to Satan or to God help me to be strong again ....



Till I return keep danceing and rocking out with GSP they are the only true Gods

love Lura (Jugsmalone)

*HUGS JUGGS TIGHT*

That really has to suck, and I hope that things get better for you soon. Our thoughts are with you.

I'm so very sorry for your loss Jugs. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

I'm so, so sorry Jugs. *hugs tight* We love you.

Oh Jugs.

*hugs you tight!!*

No sweet soul such as yours deserves such heartache.. it's true. I can only wish you the best during these times. I'm so sorry for the loss you're going through. You're in my thoughts, m'Lady.

Im so sorry to hear this. My thoughts will most certainly be with you while you endure these tough times.

Lighting incense with you in mind, Jugsy. I'm terribly sorry to hear about this, as it does seem almost unbearable.

I know you're probably not looking for advise, but it's the only way I know how to console...

Two deaths of people so close to you and happening so close together is an experience worth measuring your own life against, and that measurment only comes up one way: You are still alive. You haven't been defeated, Jugsy, nor have those you love -- even those who are no longer a part of this world. They played their roles, just as you are playing yours, and despite the grief that is mandated by such a sequence of tragedy: you are still here to play your part, thick or thin.

If you'd like to think of it as a test, then I certainly cannot argue, because that is definitely one perspective that fits. All in all, though, I think your your heart does not need to be tested. Your resolve is there, you need only apply it. Mourn for those who loved you, then show them why they did.

Take care of you, Jugsy.

Oh Jugs! That's such very sad news indeed. I'm so very sorry that you have had to endure so much grief in such a short period of time. My thoughts and prayers and deepest sympathies are with you and Tyg and your family at this trying time. *much love in a big comforting hug*!!

*hugs* will be praying for you hun I hope the best for you and may God protect you thru your trials.

*hugs tight*

Have faith Jugs. We love you.

I'm sorry for your loss.

*hugs Jugs*

I'm really really sorry. We all love you and are here for you, Jugs.

I'm so sorry, Jugs. *hugs tight* If you need some additional strength or a shoulder to lean on for rest...I'm here.

I'm really sorry Jugs. My thoughts are with you.

My condolances... I will pray for you.

I do know that you have the strength to get through this difficult time, and my thoughts go out to you while you recover from your losses as best you can. If there's anything I can do please let me know and I'll be happy to help.

*hugs tightly*

God doesn't hate you Jugsy, not one bit at all - he takes them when he needs to or feel is right to. Think about the suffering and the pain that they no longer have to endure or feel because they are now in a better place and that will always help you not think of this as a punishment or a test, but more of the cycle of life in which we endure. Your faith that all will work out for the best must endure throughout all of this Jugs *hugs tightly* I'll be praying for you.

I'd say something inspiring if I could but words fail me

My thoughts are with you Jugsy ::hugs::

You have all my sympathy hon *long distance hug*

I lost a couple of close family member at the beginning of the year - I'm not trying to say for one minute that that means that I know how you feel, because each of us walks our own path. But what I would say in the hope it might help a bit is:

You can't just switch off the hurt and the grief, and even if you could, it wouldn't necessarily be a good thing. But don't let the pain wipe out the good memories of the person they were. The sentiment that most made sense of it all for me was "We mourn that you are gone from among us, but we celebrate all the time we had to spend together." Death makes life all the more precious, both the life that has passed, and the life that is yet to come...

You know as odd as this may sound to you all the prayers and words that you have sent my way mean more to me than the real life hugs and the words of encouragement from those that are around me now AO and the GSP comunity have become my close and dear freinds.I know the words you speak are not because you feel its the right thing to do or to gain anything the words you speak are from your heart to a person whom you have never met ..Your prayers and your thoughts help to soothe the sadness and take away some of the bitterness.. I love you all and I thank you so much for supporting me... and Tarryk My once feared DJ your words of advice I always hold close you are one of the most insightfull persons I have had the pleasure of meeting and your wisdom and your courage in your own life makes me want to be strong.. The entire crew of GSP has always been thier for me in good times and in bad they have guided me and strengthend me in many ways... being a part of it if only as a dancer has made my life more exciteing and brought many smiles to my face even if you all arn't too keen on country I love the music and the expression of each of you as whole and as individualls.. I always have a favorite song from all DJS that they do and will play and I am intreagued by the expansion of my own musical likes now ...Much love and hugs to you all

While I know that we have had our differences in opinion in the past, I would like to extend my deepest and most heartfelt condolences in your time of sorrow. Condolences are mere words, and cannot express the true feelings in this matter, but it is, alas, all I can do as a human. My warmest thoughts and most heartfelt regrets go out to you at this time.

*hugs tightly*